AS you may or may not be aware I have a form of bone marrow disease called Essential Thrombocythemia which is one of a group of blood cancers.
While thus far I am fortunate that it has not been one of the more lethal forms of blood cancer there is always the worry in my mind that it will mutate and progress. Sometimes it feels like living with a ticking time bomb with the concern about mutation and susceptibility to secondary cancers.
For the first few years of this illness I was trying to carry on as normal but fatigue and lowered energy levels increasingly affected the amount of hours I was able to put in. It upset me that I was struggling to create videos and eMags to the standards that I prided myself on. Meanwhile my mental health and wellbeing were deteriorating further and for much of last year I hardly ever left my home, I pretty much became reclusive. I have had varying levels of clinical depression over the years but this last year has been particularly bad.
Through all this my intention and desire was to get back to a situation where I could produce more regular material and towards the end of last year I managed to get out with Will and shoot some as yet unpublished new material. I was I felt dealing with the worst of the depression and it was my intention to continue to get out and shoot some new material with Will throughout 2020.
Now we have the COVID-19 pandemic and of course the social restrictions but for me I fall into a vulnerable category and it is clear that I will not be able to shoot and create any new material at least until later in 2020.
So I have suspended all existing subscription payments at this time. This means that subscribers will still be able to login and access the existing library of videos and magazines but no further payments will be collected from current subscribers in 2020. You will also be able to login to access the as yet unpublished episodes I am currently working on.
Thanks for your patience and support it is much appreciated and please keep yourself safe in these uncertain times. I hope we all make it through the coming testing months and I hope to be back creating new material in the future.
Kind regards Brian Gay.